He changed my life!

I was a useless child… 

Abused,  manipulated and misused . That man… Bald,  sunken eyes,  pointed nose,  with ears sticking out… That man…  Who saw nothing else but a playtoy in front of him…  That man who gave me out for money. 

That man…  He was supposed to be a father to me.  My Foster father. 

The world was a shattered place for me. With shattered dreams,  I woke up to face a new day of rape and maltreatment. 

“GOD,  where are you?” I asked. 

But my questions seemed to go nowhere. My tears.. Could journey a boat.  My heart , so broken.  My feet hurt,  my eyes ached from constantly crying. 

 “Lord! Lord” 

It was as if the God I had heard about was on a break.  I longed for death. Oh how misery took custody of my life. 

But that day…  I saw him… A beautiful man with a presence that weakened my knees and made my arms numb.  I couldn’t even stand on my feet. 

He carried me off the ground and took me to his abode. I felt like a peaceful little bird. He was so… So… So…  So golden and so beautiful. The radiant light that emanated from his eyes was blinding.

Looking into his deeply brozen face as he spoke gave me a new hope.  Hope for a brighter future. Hope to find true love. Hope to be who I really am inside.  He said he’d dry my tears.  Mend my broken heart and give light to my shattered dreams.  How would that even be possible?  

By Gosh!  I believed him. 

Indeed that beautiful man saw a queen in the eyes of a molested child. Saw greatness in me.  Saw a future that would Glorify the Creator. Yes, it was him who changed my life. That beautiful one who made me the light of his world.  He who adored me more than anything else…  Loved me with an unconditional love… I had nothing to give him. He loved me despite my weather beaten face. 

Indeed, my little miserable life was changed… Turned around…

Today, I stand tall. I talk about him with no fear. Not caring about what others may say. Because i love him with mo shame; he took my shame away…

And changed my life… I guess he wasn’t on a break after all 😉

I surrender 

Running from you when I want to be with you. Living for self when I ought to live for you. Holding back when I need to give it all. 

Now I surrender, Jesus, to you.

Take everything,  All I really want is you.

Where can I go ? COULD I ever hide from you? Cos if I flew to the ends of the earth, still your love will find me there.  Cos you search my heart and you know my deepest thoughts.

So now I surrender 

I surrender, Jesus, to you.

—– Joe Mettle.


31st August 2016



by  Bishop Dag Heward-Mills

Lighthouse Chapel International 



READ: Hebrews 3:12-19


See to it, brothers, that none of you has a sinful, unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God.


Hebrews 3:12, NIV





There are unbending hearts which never yield, never give in, never give up, never say yes, never say no, never agree, never flow and never submit. It is important to avoid having an unbending heart. Without the right kind of heart you cannot accomplish much for the Lord. Because the heart is the centre of your ministry , it will determine the outcome of everything you do.


Fight against a firm stony heart. A stony heart is a heart that does not show any sympathy or friendliness. “His heart is as firm as a stone; yea, as hard as a piece of the nether millstone” (Job 41:24).


Fight against a backslidden heart. A backslidden heart is a heart that has dropped to a lower level or standard. A person with a backslidden heart has failed to serve the Lord as he promised and agreed to. Usually , a person with a backslidden heart has begun to do something undesirable that he had previously stopped.


“The backslider in heart shall be filled with his own ways: and a good man shall be satisfied from himself” (Proverbs 14:14).


Fight against a foolish heart. A foolish heart is a heart that is not sensible and shows a lack of judgement.


“The lips of the wise disperse knowledge: but the heart of the foolish doeth not so” (Proverbs 15:7).


Start your day with a blessing!!


​August 30, 2016


BISHOP Dag Heward-Mills

Lighthouse Chapel International

READ: Joshua 2:1-14

Knowing that whatsoever good thing any

man doeth, the same shall he receive of

the Lord, whether he be bond or free.

Ephesians 6:8

Without help you will not make it in life.

You will need assistance, forgiveness,

mercy , a push, favour and, above all,

undeserved help. Many do not sow this

seed of help, because people who receive

help from you do not look like they could

ever return the favour shown them. But

you must expect your harvest from God

and not from the person you helped. Do

not look to the person you are helping as

the source of your harvest.

Learn from these five people who sowed

a special seed by helping others:

Rahab sowed a seed of ‘help’ by helping

the spies and she reaped it when they

later helped her to escape death:

Joshua 2:22-25. Joseph sowed a seed of

‘help’ when he helped the butler to

interpret his dream and reaped a

harvest when the butler recommended

him to Pharaoh: Genesis 41:12-14.

Abigail sows a seed of ‘help’ when she

helps a man of God and reaps a harvest

when she gets a husband soon after

being widowed: 1 Samuel 25:39.

The disciples sowed seeds of ‘help’ by

continuing with Jesus in His ministry

and are promised a harvest in Heaven:

Luke 22:28-30.

Onesiphorus sowed a seed of ‘help’ when

he helped Paul and reaped a harvest

when Paul blessed him to receive mercy:

2 Timothy 1:16.

Helping somebody is a special seed that

can be sown.

First love or Not?

” I love you, I love you…”  That’s what he said the first day we met… I needed that, I really did… Why?Because I was not what he wanted me to be… Well, so I thought. 

Sometimes I talked a little too much to listen enough. Sometimes it was not easy for me to be myself and I hated the way I looked when I look into the mirror. But one look from Him, I knew he loved me and loved all my flaws, my shortcomings.

He created me to be like this. I’m not scared to make mistakes because he loved me this way. Vulnerable .

Don’t you understand? HE saw me as beautiful,  an angel… Not a looser, not a schemer, not an outcast. 

Though I felt like a servant, rugged, disheveled, so unclean but… He loved my flaws. Sometimes I got a little unsure, that I may say something wrong… I was insecure…

So I just keep to myself. .. Just talking to Him…

But GOSH. .. they think I’m going crazy.  But it’s far from that. I’m talking to the one who loved my flaws. Who loved me before anything else. Who chose me not because I had anything to offer Him . But because I was nothing. Yes, He was my first love. 

But they think I’m crazy. Look, they’re saying it. It hurts!  It hurts so much! Please tell them I’m not crazy! I’m human too! They’re saying it. It hurts so much Lord! 

They said that I am worthless. That I am no good. That I am useless. I broke down so many times. I Cried my heart out all night. It hurt to love Him. The world thought that I was psycho.  But He that loved me first knew that I was not.

But it hurt to love Him. I didn’t have any other choice . Afterall, he was the only one that believed in me. It hurt to fight for our love. Our first love.

BUT I DON’T CARE ANYMORE!  It’s just the two of us against the world now! I’ll talk to him for as long as it bothers them. He says He loves me. I believe him. .. and I always will…